May I be awakened again to my true state before God.

Yes.

I am a begger

“One in definite need of  gold refined in the fire, so that I can become rich; and white clothes to wear, so I can cover my shameful nakedness; and salve to put on my eyes, so I can see.”

“Is anyone thirsty? Come and drink–even if you have no money! Come, take your choice of wine or milk–it’s all free! Why spend your money on food that does not give you strength? Why pay for food that does you no good? Listen, and I will tell you where to get food that is good for the soul! Come to me with your ears wide open. Listen, for the life of your soul is at stake. I am ready to make an everlasting covenant with you. I will give you all the mercies and unfailing love that I promised to David.”-Is. 55:1-3